Wednesday, September 30, 2009
I'm having a realy "emo" night for lack of a better term...no not even emo, I'm just really angry and annoyed and pissed off. I tired of all of the bullshit that people do and it's really too much to handle right now. I just want to be done and tell that person that I'm not sitting around waiting and my life did actually go on while they were gone. And now I don't need them. F**k it I'm over it.
Monday, September 28, 2009
Hello friends...
So today was pretty good. I have to say, the morning got off to a really sketchy start but I've already told this story a few times so I'll keep it short. Basically, my neighbor (who is this really old lady, not to sound mean, i mean that to state a fact, shes like in her 80s) but anyway, shes kinda the lady thats all the little kids are scared of to give you an idea of her. Anyway, she asks me to go into her house to help her with the volume on her TV. I felt really bad and didn't want to be mean so I went. I know she was probably just lonely and wanting to talk to someone even for just a sec, so that's why I did it. But I have to say I was kind of scared going into her house. And I was already running late for school. So i was really late. But it all worked out.
Oh, side note, has anyone ever heard Neon Tiger by The Killers? I'm listening to it now and it's just captivating...and I'm not even saying that because of my infatuation with The Killers lol, the message behind it is just so deep. And I will probably blog about it later on but that would be really long and this is already long lol.
So we had a college visit from NIU and that was kind of mind numbing...not to be mean, I'm just not interested. It seems like a good school just not where I want to be. But much more importantly, we had a speaker come in from San Diego, awesome dude, total west coast surfer guy. Anyway, he was talking about abstinence and chastity and purity and all of that good stuff. I'm not going to lie, I was totally not into the idea at all and was a little adamant on listening to what he had to say. And honestly, like I was a little freaked out by the idea of a MAN coming into an all-girl school and talking about not having sex. Just a little ironic to me, but anyway...oh he made Mr. Shelton wear a wig and he carried him to prove a point. It was epic lol. But I need to get to the point so here it is. It was actually kind of eye opening and he really did a good job of presenting his case. I mean he wasn't all like "oh that's a sin you're going to hell...sex is dirty, bad bad bad!". No not anything like that. He gave us legit stories that I think a lot of us were secretly relating to. And it really is making me look at some decisions I've made in my life and it's making me feel like I should maybe try changing some of these things. I don't think I will get into nitty gritty details, but I will say that I realized that a lot of how guys perceive us is about what we let them perceive. And sure there are lots of jerks with their heads completely in the gutter and those are the ones we just need not deal with. But there are lots of guys out there who are yearning for a relationship with a real independent woman who they can respect, they just don't see us respecting ourselves too much. And bc generally speaking, boys are just stupid, and also just over-flooded with certain messages saying what is manly and what is not (9xs outta 10 saying that the "manly" men are the players, even though we all know it's bull) they don't understand that they should treat us with respect at all times. So we have to spell it out for them. Just like everything else. I really loved the idea of making a list of qualities you want in a guy, more specifically a husband, and how we should never settle for anything les. He told us about a girl who made up a list of 60 things so she didn't have a boyfriend for like 3 years, but when she found one it was really great and it was all worth it. I'm going to do that and I might even post my list on here.
The most important thing that struck me of all was how he said that we should never get into a relationship with a guy who has a quality (or anything at all about him) that we hope will change. We have to only be in relationships with people who we want to say exactly the same forever. Which makes perfect sense to me because if you love them exactly as they are, that's true love. So that was my ramble of the day. Any thoughts on this anyone? See you all tomorrow!!
So today was pretty good. I have to say, the morning got off to a really sketchy start but I've already told this story a few times so I'll keep it short. Basically, my neighbor (who is this really old lady, not to sound mean, i mean that to state a fact, shes like in her 80s) but anyway, shes kinda the lady thats all the little kids are scared of to give you an idea of her. Anyway, she asks me to go into her house to help her with the volume on her TV. I felt really bad and didn't want to be mean so I went. I know she was probably just lonely and wanting to talk to someone even for just a sec, so that's why I did it. But I have to say I was kind of scared going into her house. And I was already running late for school. So i was really late. But it all worked out.
Oh, side note, has anyone ever heard Neon Tiger by The Killers? I'm listening to it now and it's just captivating...and I'm not even saying that because of my infatuation with The Killers lol, the message behind it is just so deep. And I will probably blog about it later on but that would be really long and this is already long lol.
So we had a college visit from NIU and that was kind of mind numbing...not to be mean, I'm just not interested. It seems like a good school just not where I want to be. But much more importantly, we had a speaker come in from San Diego, awesome dude, total west coast surfer guy. Anyway, he was talking about abstinence and chastity and purity and all of that good stuff. I'm not going to lie, I was totally not into the idea at all and was a little adamant on listening to what he had to say. And honestly, like I was a little freaked out by the idea of a MAN coming into an all-girl school and talking about not having sex. Just a little ironic to me, but anyway...oh he made Mr. Shelton wear a wig and he carried him to prove a point. It was epic lol. But I need to get to the point so here it is. It was actually kind of eye opening and he really did a good job of presenting his case. I mean he wasn't all like "oh that's a sin you're going to hell...sex is dirty, bad bad bad!". No not anything like that. He gave us legit stories that I think a lot of us were secretly relating to. And it really is making me look at some decisions I've made in my life and it's making me feel like I should maybe try changing some of these things. I don't think I will get into nitty gritty details, but I will say that I realized that a lot of how guys perceive us is about what we let them perceive. And sure there are lots of jerks with their heads completely in the gutter and those are the ones we just need not deal with. But there are lots of guys out there who are yearning for a relationship with a real independent woman who they can respect, they just don't see us respecting ourselves too much. And bc generally speaking, boys are just stupid, and also just over-flooded with certain messages saying what is manly and what is not (9xs outta 10 saying that the "manly" men are the players, even though we all know it's bull) they don't understand that they should treat us with respect at all times. So we have to spell it out for them. Just like everything else. I really loved the idea of making a list of qualities you want in a guy, more specifically a husband, and how we should never settle for anything les. He told us about a girl who made up a list of 60 things so she didn't have a boyfriend for like 3 years, but when she found one it was really great and it was all worth it. I'm going to do that and I might even post my list on here.
The most important thing that struck me of all was how he said that we should never get into a relationship with a guy who has a quality (or anything at all about him) that we hope will change. We have to only be in relationships with people who we want to say exactly the same forever. Which makes perfect sense to me because if you love them exactly as they are, that's true love. So that was my ramble of the day. Any thoughts on this anyone? See you all tomorrow!!
Thursday, September 24, 2009
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Monday, September 21, 2009
Ok so this is for bubo! lol
Well tonight was NOT a good night like one of my favorite songs says lol. It's annoying. I feel really bad because my brother was really upset about something horrible that happened earlier. I'm so upset that it happened. I would specify but I feel like if I go into the details then I'll get even more upset all over again. But it was a really scary thing that happened and I really just hope that everything is ok. And if that weren't bad enough, I got an annoying email from a person that i really don't like at this moment in time. This person really hurt me and now I have to deal with this person again and it's not going to be fun. I don't know we'll see what happens. On a better note, I submitted my University of Illinois application! and I just want to get in so bad. Like I'm kind of upset tonight but thinking about going to U of I makes it all so much better. I can't wait to get to college that way I can live my own life and live it the way I want to. But at the same time I don't want to leave my school bc I absolutely love everyone there. Friends and teachers and even just the building lol. But too soon to think about that now so I'm just trying to enjoy my last year at Tepeyac. See you all tomorrow!
Well tonight was NOT a good night like one of my favorite songs says lol. It's annoying. I feel really bad because my brother was really upset about something horrible that happened earlier. I'm so upset that it happened. I would specify but I feel like if I go into the details then I'll get even more upset all over again. But it was a really scary thing that happened and I really just hope that everything is ok. And if that weren't bad enough, I got an annoying email from a person that i really don't like at this moment in time. This person really hurt me and now I have to deal with this person again and it's not going to be fun. I don't know we'll see what happens. On a better note, I submitted my University of Illinois application! and I just want to get in so bad. Like I'm kind of upset tonight but thinking about going to U of I makes it all so much better. I can't wait to get to college that way I can live my own life and live it the way I want to. But at the same time I don't want to leave my school bc I absolutely love everyone there. Friends and teachers and even just the building lol. But too soon to think about that now so I'm just trying to enjoy my last year at Tepeyac. See you all tomorrow!
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
I finally finished my Holocaust paper! It's really long though...14 pages. The assignment only called for 6 but Ms. Ingram said I could do more if I wanted to. I also finished my UIllinois application today and I'm excited for that. I just want to have Noonan look it over and make sure it's good to go. Then I'll send it off. I also submitted my Marquette application so I need to fill out a transcript request form for that tomorrow. I'm excited to be getting things done, but I feel like I still have a lot to do so I need to set a good amount of time aside for that. Anyway, I have service tomorrow which should be good. I've got to get to bed now because my eyes are like closing...
G'nite!! :)
G'nite!! :)
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